Life Review
While dreamhunting, I've been flicking back through my last three years on Livejournal, and it's depressing. I wrote a lot more back then and now I seem to have dried to a trickle. Also, setting up a WordPress site was possibly a mistake, as was interrupting my main blog with my Dataspace notes. Most of my main writing has been there, but I seem to be grinding to a halt and my very first Dataspace posts seem to be much in the same territory as I'm in now. I've done a lot of comp.sci reading but not managed to pull anything much together clearly enough to get a functioning model (other than a few sketchy notes on a Lisp syntax). The whole thing might be an illusion; probably not entirely, but I'm just tired of going over the same ground. I don't have such a system, I'm losing faith that I have the ability to describe it, much less build it, and time goes on.
(Ie, my very first Dataspace post on June 11th 2007 pretty much outlines the fundamental vision I'm still looking at. The rest is fussy semantics about storage and processing details, yet without those, nothing is buildable. It's like I've got half of a brilliant idea but no idea of where to find the other half. And after sixteen months I can't fill in those missing bits on my own. So maybe I just need to let it go.)
I wish I had what I want Dataspace to be, right now: a kind of distributed filing system where I could simply copy weblog posts from one system to another, and make new categories at will. I want a Social Web that works. But I don't have one, and now I'm scattered between WordPress and Livejournal. And the new version of WordPress doesn't seem to allow backdating of posts, which means I can't cleanly port bits of my online life from one place to another.
Bleh. It might be time to move back to Livejournal.
Meanwhile, my life in the local church and neighbourhood is taking more and more of my energy, which is probably a good thing, but means I'm somehow finding less and less energy to think about what I'm doing.
There are heavy things I need to work through about spirituality, religion, sustainability, and politics, and instead all I'm posting are dream logs and meta rants.